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Josh_Kablack wrote:Small victory that is personally yuge: Yesterday I actually ran a mile -- it took almost 6 months since the hamstring injury to recover enough to do so.

Awesome.

How'd you injure your hamstring?

Oh, congrats. Out of interest, do you know your time?

I don't actually know what a normal time for running a mile is, though.

At six miles an hour (a comfortable slow run/fast jog) a mile is 10 minutes. The fastest speed on most treadmills is 12/mph which corresponds to a 5 minute mile. Anything in the 7-8 minutes I would consider 'good' - not Olympic caliber but certainly excellent for non-athletes.

Mask_De_H wrote: Awesome.

How'd you injure your hamstring?

I tripped over a mover's dolly at work and fell in a way that involved doing an involuntary split.

Thaluikhain wrote: Out of interest, do you know your time?

I don't actually know what a normal time for running a mile is, though.

I was just under 10 minutes -- so it was technically "running" and not just "jogging". Now it was indoors on a treadmill, which is always notably faster for me than outdoor running.

For comparison, last year pre-injury I could put in up to four miles on the treadmill at a 9 min/mile pace or strain real hard to finish a single treadmill mile in under 8 minutes. Since I'm only competing with myself and running for health, those are the numbers that matter.

If instead I was trying to compete with seriously competitive runners: the Unversity of Pittsburgh track team's record mile time is a fraction of a second over 4 minutes.

I just found out that my uncle goes by the alternate name of Swami Loopynanda.

Episcopalians meet Shub-Niggurath: http://deepcuts.blog/2018/02/24/prey-of ... -l-carter/

Turns out confiding to my partner that I was having suicidal ideation won't make her threaten to break up with me. Last partner I had informed me that telling her I had suicidal ideation was a form of abuse (and no, I wasn't threatening to kill myself because she was trying to break up with me. She damn sure threatened to break up with me if I ever told her that again). I'm still learning what sane women do that crazy women don't do.

Honestly weird having someone that won't disown me for opening up to them. Still more used to screaming my frustrations into the void but I'll work on it.

Hopefully this is nothing but a good thing.

Huh, I'm back after a while. I don't know why I reopened the Den today after almost a two-three year break from this place.

Of course, coming into the "it's Personal" thread a few years later might mean that I should make a giant post about all the stuffs that has happened (and a lot has) but let's actually see if I'm going to even still be in this community in the future.

So tl;dr for last two years (well, technically I haven't posted the longform yet -- but whatevs) is I got divorced, moved 1.5k miles away, started a master's degree in Rhetoric and Composition, and now sit trying to find the motivation to finish the degree and figure out the next step. Oh, also I injured my ankle several times.
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Really, what I've been kinda thinking about recently is motivation. As someone with chronic clinical depression and PTSD, I'm starting to feel mental burnout. Over the last three-ish years, I've kinda just worked non-stop so as not to actually figure out what's happening (PTSD, divorce, depression, school, all the changes). Now, even with psychiatric help at this point, I've started to realize that a lot of these questions/concerns don't have a proper satisfactory answer. I think that's why I came back to the Den. It's been one of my longest serving online communities of just belonging. But that's the funny part. I haven't thought game theory or fandom in a while. So, I wonder if I even have anything to say in any forum that's not MPSIMS anymore.

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huh, I guess I do need an actual tl;dr now. So -- big life changes, I r ex-gamer and now back for your rational answers. SOLVE MY PROBLEMS, Den.

Welcome back.

In three years not lots has happened.

L5R is getting a new edition, Paradox bought the WoD out of CCP's hands (but V5 threatens to be as bad as Requiem, if not worse), Robin Laws is still the only game designer I respect (and is still releasing games, I backed his Yellow King kickstarter), Onyx Path was left now only with Exalted (big mistake, since Exalted would make for great videogames, and Paradox should have bought it from CCP as well), and dnd 5E is still abandonware.

Also I understand the need of somewhere to belong.

Welcome back, Cyn.

I feel you, Cynic. Depression, ptsd, panic disorder, and an auto-immune disorder (in addition to obesity-related problems, but I consider those self-inflicted). Therapy helped the ptsd, drugs helped the depression and panic attacks. Finding a therapist that would acknowledge that I had real problems i want fixed rather than one that just wanted to give me a pep talk was hard but worth it.

And I'm here less because I belong and more because this is one of the few boards I wasn't either banned from or politely but firmly asked to leave by the admins.

Welcome back.

Maj wrote: Welcome back.

It's the :Maj: smiley. I had forgotten all about it.

wb, Cynic.

'sup cynic

In other news, the National Weather Service has just gone ahead and officially made things into a winter storm warning, so there's now officially no such thing as spring here. Glad that's settled.

Welcome back cynic. For your sake I hope you’re not in the Midwest now. I drove home to Indiana from Iowa on Sunday night through what was practically a blizzard and now we have thunderstorms all day with likelihood of hail and tornadoes since the temperature kicked up 20-30 degrees... and due for snow again on the weekend.

Midwest people like to bitch about the weather.

Or maybe the weather likes to bitch about people living in the Midwest.

I lived in Iowa for 9 years - it certainly felt like the weather was trying to make me feel unwelcome.

As far as I can tell everyone bitches about the weather, it's just funnier in the midwest because it's routine shit whereas other places are under water or on fire.

There is a reason why - when given the opportunity to move anywhere in the US - we only moved 20 miles west. Hell, Portland's weather is too extreme for me (Yes, I am a weather weenie. No, I do not care). Bleh.

I have to say, the weird weather "over there" is affecting us at work because we work with a whole bunch of properties that need things like new roofs (rooves?) and porches and paint and so on. And the weather is not cooperating.

Count Arioch the 28th wrote:Midwest people like to bitch about the weather.

There fixed that for you.

Also, no, Just the southwest. Here's my complaining about the weather.

I live in the hill country in Texas and my college is on the fucking hill. It's humid and i"m on crutches. It's so fucking humid right now. So walking up and down everywheres while sweat makes the crutch dig harder into the ribs near your pits sucksss.

So... After multiple evaluations and testing, docs think that Gi's autistic. Today has been so exhausting that I have no clue how I feel about this.

Started working on my taxes, was looking at something like $800 rebate, then I added my Lyft income and that fucking plummeted to $200.

ffs.